WELCOME HOME, COWBOY
Book 4, Wed in the West series
Special Edition #2054
July 2010

Available June 2010 on eHarlequin.com (paper and e-book)

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At a crossroads in his career, country singer Cash Cochran only means to make things right between him and an old buddy when he returns to his stomping grounds in New Mexico. Except Lee is dead, leaving behind a debt-ridden, pregnant widow determined to hang onto the small farm carved out of what’s left of Cash’s family ranch. But while Emma Manning does need help, for damn sure the strong, spiritually-grounded redhead doesn’t need pity…and what she has threatens to undermine everything Cash has believed about himself since he was a boy.

The last thing Emma needs is somebody else to worry over. However, when an obviously penitent Cash offers his labor to help with the farm’s spring planting/mending/tending, not only is she not in a position to refuse, but how can she not at least try to mend the deep-seated hurt she sees in those famous silver eyes?  Only, once the planting’s done and her baby’s born, will Cash return to the only thing that “saved” him from his father’s cruelty so many years before…or will Emma be able to convince him where home truly is?

 

EXCERPT

Chapter One

Cash Cochran hadn’t known what to expect, but for damn sure goats in coats hadn’t made the list.

His breath clouding his face, he frowned at the half dozen or so beasts in the wire-fenced pen adjacent to the barn., bright colored balloons on spindly legs. They squinted back with bemused smiles, droopy ears flicking. One gave him a questioning bleat.

I’m not sure, either, Cash thought, his gaze sweeping what had once been a sizeable mamas-and-calves operation, sold off in bits and pieces until nothing remained except the house and the ten or so acres his father’d willed to Lee Manning a few years ago…a discovery that’d nearly knocked Cash right off the wagon. Except that was one level of hell he had no wish to revisit, thank you.
 
Not that he’d needed, or wanted, the property, nestled between two mountain ranges in northern New Mexico. Lee and his wife had been welcome to it. But the why behind the bequest had tainted the lapsed friendship with a bitter stink, one time had barely begun to dissipate.
 
The sun popped out from behind a doughy cloud, bringing changes into sharp relief – the fair-sized, utilitarian greenhouse, the unplowed fields, a young orchard not yet in bloom. Tattered, heavy-duty plastic clinging to one side of the house – an abandoned home improvement project, would be his guess. The goats. Even so, the endless sky and pure, weightless air, the wind’s contented sigh through the pinon windbreak – those were exactly as he’d remembered.
 
What he’d missed.

Unlike the house itself – a ranch-style built high enough for a porch but too low for a basement, the exterior a conglomeration of stucco and fake brick and bad siding – which he hadn’t missed at all. Putrid memories punched through the paneled wood door and fake-shuttered windows, trampling the riot of egg-yolk yellow daffodils crowding the foundation, the cutesy Welcome sign beside the recently repainted porch—

Barking its head off, an avalanche on four enormous, filthy feet roared around the side of the house and straight toward Cash.

“Bumble! Heel!”

Cash’s head jerked up, his gaze colliding with blue-green eyes as steady as they were curious. The called-off polar bear of a dog swerved at once, trotting over to plant his butt beside the red-sweatered goat his mistress held onto. A jumble of coppery hair, the bright plaid scarf hanging down her front, both glowed in contrast to the blah-colored, too-large barn coat, faded jeans, muddied boots.

“Can I help you?”

“Sorry, ma’am, didn’t mean to cause a ruckus. I’m—”

“I know who you are,” the woman said with a bite to her West Texas drawl that made Cash wonder if she kept the dog around just for show. At least she’d been smiling in her wedding photo.

“I take it you’re…” He scoured his brain for her name. “Emma?”
           
“That’s me.”

Cash couldn’t remember the last time a woman didn’t go all swoony and tongue-tied in his presence. Longer still since such things had stoked his ego, made a lonesome young cowboy with a fair talent for guitar-picking and song-writing feel like hot stuff. It’d surprised him, how fast all the attention got old. Especially when it finally penetrated that the gals were far more interested in Cash’s so-called fame than they were in him. Still, Emma Manning’s obliviousness to his so-called charms unnerved him. His attention swerved again to the goats, still watching him with squinched-up little faces.

“Why’re they dressed?”

“Had to shear ‘em before they kidded. Then the temperature dropped. Mr. Cochran…I’m sorry, but why are you here? Since I somehow doubt you dropped by to chit-chat about my goats.”

He glanced back, caught the frown, the fine lines feathering the corners of those cool, calm eyes. “Guess you’d call that a loaded question. Lee around?”

Something flickered across her face – irritation, maybe – before she wordlessly led the goat back to the pen. Hot shame licked up Cash’s neck, that if he hadn’t found that letter a few months ago – a letter he hadn’t realized he’d kept – he might not even be here now. But he was, which was the important thing.

Wasn’t it?

Emma gently kneed the goat’s rump, encouraging her to rejoin her friends. Her silence, however, was anything but gentle. Even her hair – scattered across her back, nearly to her waist – seemed to crackle with anger. Anger he wasn’t totally sure he understood, truth be told.

“I know I should’ve called first,” he said, “but this morning…I just found myself heading out here. And by that point I figured I’d better see it through before I lost my nerve. If Lee’s not here, no problem, I could come back.” From inside the pen, puzzled eyes cut to his. “I bought a house a few months ago, on the other side of town. Haven’t been there long, though. Couple, three days—”

“You moved back to Tierra Rosa?”

“For the time being, yeah. I guess…” He lowered his eyes, wrestling with this new-fangled thing called honesty. Meeting her gaze again, he said, “I guess sometimes you gotta go back to the beginning before you can move forward. And part of that’s patching things up with Lee—”

“That’s not possible, Mr. Cochran,” Emma said quietly, latching the gate before facing him again. “Since Lee died last fall.”

* * *

If she’d had more than thirty seconds’ notice, Emma might’ve finessed the news a little more instead of blurting it out. Then again, she wasn’t exactly feeling too steady on her pins herself, since she’d no more expected to see Cash Cochran standing her yard that morning than she would’ve the Lord Jesus.

“I’m sorry,” he finally said. “Haven’t been in touch with anybody from around here for years, I…” Giving his head a sharp shake, Cash pressed one palm against the car’s roof, softly swearing as he stared over it. “What happened?”

“His heart,” Emma said, refusing to indulge the lingering grief razoring the words. “Apparently it was a substandard model. Like putting a rusty, used up four-cylinder engine in a semi.” She brushed off her hands, rammed them in the pockets of Lee’s old barn coat. Willed the fine tremor racking her body to subside. “There was some talk about a transplant, but turns out that wasn’t really an option.”

“I’m so sorry,” Cash repeated on a rough breath, the wind toying with the ragged ends of the hay-colored, shoulder-length hair visible beneath his cowboy hat. “More than I can say.”

“Yeah. Me, too.”

His jaw pulsing, he yanked open his car door. “I didn’t mean to intrude, I—“ His fist slammed onto the roof. “Damn.”

A couple of the goats bleated, concerned. At Emma’s knees, Bumble let out a low growl.

“There’s coffee on,” she heard herself say, even as she thought, Please, God. No. “And pie. Peach. From the tree.”

Cash’s eyes swung to the lone peach tree down by the front fence. Between the altitude, the crazy northern New Mexico winter and Dwight Cochran’s neglect, it was a wonder the thing’d survived at all. Like the man in front of her, she thought on a slight intake of breath. Although the tree looked to be in far better shape than he was.

“Mr. Cochran?”

After a moment, he faced her, his famous silver eyes slightly unfocused. “Come on into the house. Until things settle a bit in your head.”

Bumble growled at him, louder this time, all Great Pyrenees machismo. Cash almost smiled. “You don’t want me here.”

“Wouldn’t be at the top of my list, no. But if you’re feeling a tenth of what I did when I suddenly found myself a widow a few months back, you’re in no fit condition to be driving back down that mountain.”

“I can manage—”

“Thank you, but I’m not up for taking that chance. And since my chores aren’t going away while we’re standing here, I suggest we move this conversation inside.”

* * *

Inside.

Cash glanced at the house. The memories leered. Then again, what had he expected?

Lee to be here, for starters. To buffer the pain of coming home, ease Cash through the worst of it. Like he’d always done. A stupid-ass assumption to begin with, considering how shredded things had become between them. How shredded Cash had let them get.

Now it was too late. For apologies, explanations, any of it.

“What’s to talk about?”

“Whatever led you here after all this time, I suppose.” At Cash’s continued hesitation, Emma said, almost sharply, “I promise you, there’s nothing in there that can hurt you anymore.”  When his eyes snapped to hers, her mouth pulled tight. “Lee told me why you ran off. What your father did to you. Husbands share with their wives, Mr. Cochran,” she said to his glare. “Especially husbands trying to make sense out of why their best friend cut them off.”

“We were kids. We grew apart. I didn’t cut him off—”

“Oh, no? When Lee wrote to tell you about us getting the house, you never wrote back, never returned his calls, nothing. If that’s not cuttin’ somebody off, I don’t know what is.”

“And if you know about my father, I think it’d be perfectly obvious why I wasn’t exactly overcome with joy when I discovered Lee’d gotten buddy-buddy with the man who’d made my life a living hell—”

“Exactly what did my husband tell you? About why Dwight left us the house?”

Acid surged in Cash’s gut. “Only that some time after I left, he started working for the bastard. Helping out around the place, stuff like that.”

“And?”

“And, what? That was it.”

“Oh, Lord,” she muttered, then added, “We need to talk,” in a tone of voice that said there was more to the story. Half of him wasn’t sure he wanted to find out what that was, except…

Except if he’d come for answers, what difference did it make who he got them from?

His eyes touched hers. “How strong you make your coffee?”

“You won’t be disappointed,” Emma said, then set off toward the house. The dog gave him a Mess with her and you’re dead look, then plodded behind, only to collapse on the porch, completely ignoring Cash when he passed by.

Cash could only hope his father’s ghost would extend him the same courtesy. 

 


Copyright 2010, Karen Templeton-Berger. All rights reserved.

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